Monday, August 24, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
How could you do a thing like that? I thought you were my friend, I thought you were my friend...
in the way i think and just exactly how deep some of it runs
cognitive errors
errors in thinking with roots that have woven themselves into the fabric of my personality
my very self
it is so scary to see these things
face them
and know that they have been a part of me for all my history
it is a frightening thing
so many of the stones I turn over have
Pandora's ugly bugs beneath them
Labels:
depression,
despair,
harsh reality,
personality,
poetry,
sad
Thursday, July 23, 2009
I R Hungry Kitteh But I Wayt
my cat
she's so weird
a client of kitty neurosis dot com
she knows she's hungry
and really wants to attack her marvelous morsels i've put out
but she waits...
she stalls...
she sits in a dark corner
and then...
when i pretend i'm not looking
that's when she goes
all non-chalant
and attacks her marvelous morsels
silly kitty
she's so weird
a client of kitty neurosis dot com
she knows she's hungry
and really wants to attack her marvelous morsels i've put out
but she waits...
she stalls...
she sits in a dark corner
and then...
when i pretend i'm not looking
that's when she goes
all non-chalant
and attacks her marvelous morsels
silly kitty
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
What Can I Do?
where to put it?
I need to set it down
all this
I'm missing you stuff
I want to tell you that i miss you
but you are nowhere to hear
in no posistion
to listen
out of access
line interrupted
sudden brutal disconnection
where
do I put this
I'm missing you stuff?
I need to set it down
all this
I'm missing you stuff
I want to tell you that i miss you
but you are nowhere to hear
in no posistion
to listen
out of access
line interrupted
sudden brutal disconnection
where
do I put this
I'm missing you stuff?
Labels:
alone,
despondent,
harsh reality,
sad,
therapist withdrawal symptoms
The Shelling is Relentless Regardless of Tactical Evasive Measures
I turn around
see that once was sound
my fortress
is now
in little scattered shambles
all in a row
leading off to heaven knows where
north of here
somewhere allegedly near the Capital
the stark, blasted flat-out unreality of it all is
the tricky part
striking me silly
somewhere
spinning me
blindfolded
I have my tail
my pin
but the donkey has fled
due...north
out of here
You Are Who?
they thaw the constraints found in time
a bridge so dark from foggy days
please blow to clear that blinding haze
lift to light
a dark made stark
super-glue my shattered heart
who are you to outshine the sun?
who are you?
sent by what one?
who are you the other side of the blaze?
who gave you the right to
shatter my daze?
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
He Is Made Of Myth
This hero with a thousand gracesA guru
To look up to
Smiling at me from across
A stretch between two moments
Became a divine vision
A holy dream
Who is it I may lay
This mistaken identity on?
No uncertainty
Only
A legend
7 feet tall!
Will do
Labels:
metaphor,
poetry,
reflection,
savior complex
so much is so mysterious...
a magical compound that immerses us into the earth realm...
here
and we see each other in fantastic light
where otherwise we wouldn't
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
A passing thought as a social critic
I think it is interesting how cult-like organizations form around brands
The cult reference isn't good cause that word stirs controversy where I'd like to see objectivity
When thinking about things like consumer loyalty
It fascinates the part of me that is interested in human behavior
The cult reference isn't good cause that word stirs controversy where I'd like to see objectivity
When thinking about things like consumer loyalty
It fascinates the part of me that is interested in human behavior
Labels:
consumerism,
culture,
groups,
social commentary
Sunday, July 12, 2009
The Shelling is Relentless Regardless of Evasive Measures
I turn around
see that once was sound
my fortress
is now
in little scattered shambles
all in a row
leading off to heaven knows where
north of here
somewhere allegedly near the Capital
the stark, blasted flat-out unreality of it all is
the tricky part
striking me silly
somewhere
spinning me
blindfolded
I have my tail
my pin
but the donkey has fled
due...
out of here
see that once was sound
my fortress
is now
in little scattered shambles
all in a row
leading off to heaven knows where
north of here
somewhere allegedly near the Capital
the stark, blasted flat-out unreality of it all is
the tricky part
striking me silly
somewhere
spinning me
blindfolded
I have my tail
my pin
but the donkey has fled
due...
out of here
Labels:
abandoned,
departures,
history repeating,
patterns,
sad,
shelled,
spinning,
vulnerable
Friday, July 10, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
(Talk to me some more, You know that you don't have to go)
Empty Picture Frame
I have invisible friends now
2 of them
They are my friends
But their ethereal composition
Is like a chocolate cake
On a too high shelf
I can see them
Taste them
Hear them feel them
I beseech
But I just can't reach
I have invisible friends now
2 of them
They are my friends
But their ethereal composition
Is like a chocolate cake
On a too high shelf
I can see them
Taste them
Hear them feel them
I beseech
But I just can't reach
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
...what i notice...
peeking out saying hello reminding me and myself of my
higher-ness
by the way
I am spewing forth & churning with new notions and noticing many
what-knots
and such. I don't know maybe this is what makes me so
l
e
t
h
a
r
g
I
c
yes wretched lethargy
curse its hide
it sucks that I am all withdrawn and catatonic
I feel like I need 3 months notice
A Lead Burka
A cinder block enclosure with lots of peep holes
And plenty of druggage even beginning to be comfortable
socializing
all these things in ordinary life
my stress intolerance
shuts me down
I remember high mind high mind high mind
my mantra
I am feeling all
weird and tired
I am thinking about asking someone
to come over here slap me
higher-ness
by the way
I am spewing forth & churning with new notions and noticing many
what-knots
and such. I don't know maybe this is what makes me so
l
e
t
h
a
r
g
I
c
yes wretched lethargy
curse its hide
it sucks that I am all withdrawn and catatonic
I feel like I need 3 months notice
A Lead Burka
A cinder block enclosure with lots of peep holes
And plenty of druggage even beginning to be comfortable
socializing
all these things in ordinary life
my stress intolerance
shuts me down
I remember high mind high mind high mind
my mantra
I am feeling all
weird and tired
I am thinking about asking someone
to come over here slap me
Labels:
abstract,
personality,
poetry,
self portrait,
study
the torment of unrest
this chemical malfunction
this neurosis
this mental malady
this craziness
this black dog
causes me so much undue pain
i feel it so deeply
sometimes i really worry
i worry about my heart exploding
broken heart pain is real
and sometimes my head feels like
it wants to explode too
like an aneurysm
this seizure of feeling
wears me threadbare
and my best friend is my bed
this neurosis
this mental malady
this craziness
this black dog
causes me so much undue pain
i feel it so deeply
sometimes i really worry
i worry about my heart exploding
broken heart pain is real
and sometimes my head feels like
it wants to explode too
like an aneurysm
this seizure of feeling
wears me threadbare
and my best friend is my bed
Sunday, July 5, 2009
that's funny
I try to get through to life
it gives me the silent treatment
but still it refuses to change its phone number
it gives me the silent treatment
but still it refuses to change its phone number
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Can you double up on the tetrahydrozoline please?
And then she finds this hive is very different from hers
She's been swept up in an anomalous vortex
Very rogue in kind
Sending her to a place with 10x more activity
Than she's used to
If she closes her eyes
She can understand
But
The teacher yells at her
Making an example of her
When she does
She's been swept up in an anomalous vortex
Very rogue in kind
Sending her to a place with 10x more activity
Than she's used to
If she closes her eyes
She can understand
But
The teacher yells at her
Making an example of her
When she does
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
No judgment
Everything in life holds both a blessing and a curse. We deny this when we label the events of our lives as either good or bad. The following old Zen story illustrates this lesson most effectively.
A farmer had a horse but one day, the horse ran away and so the farmer and his son had to plow their fields themselves. Their neighbors said, "Oh, what bad luck that your horse ran away!" But the farmer replied, "Bad luck, good luck, who knows?"
The next week, the horse returned to the farm, bringing a herd of wild horses with him. "What wonderful luck!" cried the neighbors, but the farmer responded, "Good luck, bad luck, who knows?"
Then, the farmer's son was thrown as he tried to ride one of the wild horses, and he broke his leg. "Ah, such bad luck," sympathized the neighbors. Once again, the farmer responded, "Bad luck, good luck, who knows?"
A short time later, the ruler of the country recruited all young men to join his army for battle. The son, with his broken leg, was left at home. "What good luck that your son was not forced into battle!" celebrated the neighbors. And the farmer remarked, "Good luck, bad luck, who knows?"
"Do not judge, and you will never be mistaken."
-- Jean Jacques Rousseau
A farmer had a horse but one day, the horse ran away and so the farmer and his son had to plow their fields themselves. Their neighbors said, "Oh, what bad luck that your horse ran away!" But the farmer replied, "Bad luck, good luck, who knows?"
The next week, the horse returned to the farm, bringing a herd of wild horses with him. "What wonderful luck!" cried the neighbors, but the farmer responded, "Good luck, bad luck, who knows?"
Then, the farmer's son was thrown as he tried to ride one of the wild horses, and he broke his leg. "Ah, such bad luck," sympathized the neighbors. Once again, the farmer responded, "Bad luck, good luck, who knows?"
A short time later, the ruler of the country recruited all young men to join his army for battle. The son, with his broken leg, was left at home. "What good luck that your son was not forced into battle!" celebrated the neighbors. And the farmer remarked, "Good luck, bad luck, who knows?"
"Do not judge, and you will never be mistaken."
-- Jean Jacques Rousseau
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